I had chosen GREEN for Ami's color. I did her maternity session out by Donalda and the weather was perfect. This is her story...
"I was born and raised here in small town Alberta. My husband came from Nova Scotia, and we met through work in 2013.
We weren't together long before we were surprised to be expecting our first baby. Textbook pregnancy. After she was born in 2014, and was about a year old, we had ONE conversation about "it might be nice for her to have a sibling".... and a month later we were surprised to be pregnant again!
Second daughter was born in 2016.
We weren't ones to "try" for a baby. We didn't take precautions either though. But we didn't get pregnant. We've been firm believers of "if it's meant to happen, it will".
Fast forward to 2021. I was in the process of switching jobs, and I was so sick. We eventually figured out I was pregnant. I had undiagnosed Hyperemesis gravidarum, and my doctor was zero help. I eventually was able to get into the midwives in Red Deer (there is a wait list - you honestly need to get on the list the moment your test is positive, they are in such high demand, and for good reason!).
We went for the consult and decided we would love to have her as our primary care provider. She asked if we would like to hear the heartbeat. I was 16 weeks pregnant. We had attempted to hear ourselves using an at home doppler, because, again, our doctor did NOTHING. Sometimes we could find baby and sometimes we couldn't. She tried, but there was no heartbeat. We thought maybe it was just baby's positioning. After all, the 8 week ultrasound had been great.
We came back a week later. Tried again. No heartbeat. She immediately called the hospital and had me go in for a Viability check ultrasound.
Keep in mind, this was during pandemic times. I wasn't allowed anyone with me. I walked the hall alone. I sat alone. I did the ultrasound alone. And then the tech asked if I had anyone that could come be with me. They contacted my midwife and my husband, and my mother who had been my driver that day. They almost denied my husband access because my mom was there first.
17 weeks. No heartbeat. No growth since 14 weeks.
I made the decision to go home and tell my children and mourn together. Came back 2 days later and delivered. A "medically induced abortion". But my husband and I got to hold our 34g wee one, to see he was a boy, and say goodbye.
We made the decision to try for another almost immediately. My heart goes out to every person who was every struggled with fertility. We were lucky - it took us 6 months. A lot of vitamins. A lot of ovulation tests. A lot of tracking. A handful of negative pregnancy tests. And a lot of tears and questioning on whether I could trust my own body again.
We gave up in December 2021 - we ended up having sick kids, sick husband, then just as we were feeling better, we ALL caught Covid. December was a write off in my mind.
But for some reason, everyone else got better and I was still throwing up and experiencing terrible food aversions.
I was almost 7 weeks pregnant before I took a test and realized we were, in fact, pregnant again. I immediately contacted our midwife and was able to get in right away with a wonderful lady.
I have had a TON of support this pregnancy. I was very open about our journey through our loss and grief process, so this rainbow baby has a lot of people cheering them on.
I cannot wait to meet this sweet little baby Earthside. They just need to pick their birthday!"
Meet baby Zander! The little cutie that didn't want to sleep for his session. But then I used my baby whispering skills and got him to sleep finally!
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